NotMyAudienceV2_mixdown.mp3

Darkness is not the only form I take
when I stare at pictures of you
I have a sense of pride in the actions
A realization of the skin as a whole
Im not so shallow I do not allow
but the mannerisms I must reject

cannot help but screen my lenses
Im just a mess compared to the bright lights
and the lusting and cream from your lips
Im not the cut up type with the mean streak
But im thinking my time is better spent
alone in this dark room

im just a gun with a bullet
loaded and tensed
im never going off
empathy and sympathy are discarded functions
such a cold wire wrapped around my tongue
ill not mouth your words
its a life not worth living
follow me and be lost in ruin
diagnose me as a failure
take my drugs and slip away from here.

antogonists tell me to stop
leave me a crippled mess on the floor
im so lonely with our blood on my hands
im paralyzed in my bed
you mean nothing to this leacherous man
im disentigrating in the dusk light
continue to stare
please

im just a gun with a bullet
loaded and tensed
im never going off
empathy and sympathy are discarded functions
such a cold wire wrapped around my tongue
ill not mouth your words
its a life not worth living
follow me and be lost in ruin
diagnose me as a failure
take my drugs and slip away from here.


Your body is so beautiful
but I cannot be part of your love
every step you take away from me
leaves me slightly colder
but I know you are running towards me
to give your life away to me
my teeth are clenched
we do not need this anymore
than we need a bomb to light a fire

im just a gun with a bullet
loaded and tensed
im never going off
empathy and sympathy are discarded functions
such a cold wire wrapped around my tongue
ill not mouth your words
its a life not worth living
follow me and be lost in ruin
diagnose me as a failure
take my drugs and slip away from here.


im such a follower to my hands
creating like a mother
romanticized
fawn over me
and ill drift away
because this audience is not for me